Maula

I came across  a song that my good friend Ramsha introduced to me and I admit I fell in love. The lyrics and the artist stirs up emotions in me I once thought were dead.

its in Urdu so If you are a hindi speaker you could understand the lyrics but if ur not then just listen to the sound and cherish the moment.

Ali Azmat- Maula (Jism 2)

I just wanted to share it with you guys. Ill be uploading a translation of the lyrics soon. enjoy.. gotta head to class. XD have a wonderful day.

the broken pieces of me :(

Now I know how many of you would react to the emo rants of  teenager. I've heard all the jokes on investing in a prozac plant and all but some times the soul gets weary. 

Lately I' ve been thinkin of my apathetic complacency. I guess theres no other way to put it. I know people are counting on me and I have made the commitment to fulfill my obligations but i can find it in myself to honour those promises because I feel little remorse for being so obstinate. 

I dont know why I've placed everyone and everything on hold in order to figure myself out and i need to prioritize my workload over self awareness. But a part of me feels hollow and I search for friends and companionship to fill the void. 

i feel like im scrambling to saturate myself with physical and mental stimulus in order to forget the problem exists.

I dont know if I can last much longer. somebody rescue me.

Who says your not AWESOME?!

Having a conversation with a friend I came across the possibility that I may be great at a certain attribute but I may not be exceptional at it so I shouldn't consider myself awesome at it.

At first I was taken aback at his brusqueness, I mean how can he say I'm not great and I'm just above average? I then had to put myself in his shoes and realize that I sounded snobbish and haughty in the first place. I sounded like a down right snoot for even saying that.

Then again I'm the kinda person who struggles with self esteem issues and I guess the only thing I considered myself any good at was that attribute. The past had left irreparable scars on my psyche and this attribute was my only attempt at normalcy and being able to fit in.

I finally realized that this attribute was just the one part of the complexity that is me. It took some soul searching for me to figure out I need to accept every part of me if I really want to be awesome.

Being awesome is not being formidably exceptional by standards of society. It's a firm and centered belief that you are the best possible human being you could possibly be at that point in time. Being true to your potential with every step and action.

I consider myself awesome because I am in a place of my choice and doing what I have planned as a teenager. I believe in myself and in the trueness of humankind.

I can be awesome and so can you..

All about my brand of crazy!!!!

While  was making this post I realized I misspelled "Weird". My bad folks, I guess u can blame over enthusiasm for that. The truth is, I did have a blog last year and well I only had one post because I didn't really appreciate consistency and it was about how sad my life was at that point in time.

There will be no such thing here. Except maybe when I have a nasty day at Uni and I need to rant and rave. Ive recently been finding it hard to keep all my friends in the loop as to whats new in Malcam Land. this is a way to let yall know whats been on my mind if ur really interested.

I'll admit it, I'm the mushy kind that talks about "feelings".. God that just sounds so lame. But in addition to that I'll be posting videos and tracks of my favourite jams and my personal reviews on them.